I believe that asking for help is one the most courageous steps one can take, especially when you have been the one caring for others, and find it difficult to give yourself permission. Finding a safe place to be honest with our struggles and our limited capacity as human beings can release one from carrying all that they feel obligated to carry.
...I just did not realize all the things going on inside me. I did not realize all that I was hanging onto. But in working with Greg, we slowly unpacked it. I felt safe and seen, even as messy as I felt.
...I felt seen by Greg. As imperfect as I felt, he helped me see the good things about me that I could not see in myself. He joined me in my imperfect places and helped me see why I did not believe in myself, and how that was impacting my own life and the lives of others.
Anxiety can be paralyzing. Sometimes we have events from our life that are triggered, rendering us seemingly powerless. Sometimes we cannot get our minds to stop thinking about the same thing over and over again. Sometimes finding some way to quiet this anxiety feels so far away. Other times, we feel disconnected from who we are. Numb. Accepting ourselves is one of the hardest things we can do because it requires being vulnerable. We have that voice inside that says, "don't do it", "you don't deserve it", "that's selfish", "you don't have time for that". All of these can be the voice of shame, and keep us from being our true selves. Understanding this inner voice and how it came to be can be one of the first steps to finding your way out, and finding your authentic self.